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After that last one of those I just stopped, sat still on my overstuffed chair in the Great Room of my apartment and held out my hands giving even this pursuit to God, asking Him to come in and get right in the middle of all of this. I started to cry, and I remember just lifting my hands in the form of a cup saying “Small Change In Your Pocket Lord, no quarters, half dollars, no Silver Dollars, no Susan B Anthony’s… just small change in Your pocket…widow’s mites, pennies, nickels, dimes…I give it all to you Father…I knew and sensed then I was still reeling from all that had happened after Cheryl’s tragic passing and all that had happened between Kate and I. I was just trying I think to cover it up, put it behind me and move on. After that moment I just turned it off for a while. I stopped trying to square peg round hole it. I think I paused for a month or two. I knew the Father had my back this time as I had put all of it into His Hands…I still felt good about this application I just needed to not try so hard. I decided to open my circle of recipients from what I started with. I started at a thirty mile radius around my home address to one hundred and twenty miles. I knew the list would be very large now. I did that on a Friday night. The following morning, I decided to check the list of NEW candidates. The first one on the list was My Tamm. That is NOT a coincidence. That is GOD. She had such a kind, sweet, wonderful smile, great pics of her kids and even grandkids. All the details of her profile came across as fresh, honest, thought out. Just what I was looking for. Just what I had prayed about. I cannot explain it accept to say…Glory to God in The Highest…All things He works together for good… We emailed each other on the protected email from E Harmony for the first few weeks. I think I said I am sending you my own email as I would like to move our relationship to a higher level of transparency. Tammy sent me her cell phone number. I was very excited to get that for sure…I think I said to myself “That is a step above my step, Oh good”. I sent her my cell as well. We talked every day in the evening telling each other about our days and what happened. Many times, I had to plug my phone in to keep the charge up as our conversations went longer, taking more and more time. I would look up and we had talked for two or three hours. Yawning was usually the bell that told me it was late, and we had to get ready for another day of work. It was time for bed. It was very good…we needed to meet. One night I said, do you think it is time to meet? We had been emailing and talking with each other about four or five months now. She said that would be OK. Where should we meet? Remember I lived in North Seattle, and she lived in Castle Rock. I had never been in that town; I did not even know how far down it was. I asked Tammy, do you know where Mount Rainier is? She said yes, I thought from looking on a map of the area that this destination would be a long drive for me but a short drive for her. I wanted her to feel safe and secure and OK with everything, so I said, “Why don’t we drive our cars and meet near the mountain and have a picnic. I had been to Mount Rainier once before many years ago as a long story short, Robin and I and our friend Alan took an aerial plane ride with a next-door neighbor of hers who was a pilot. We drove from her house as we were up there in the summer of 1976 to pick up her stuff as she was moving down to California to live with her longtime friend Marlys and her family in California. I just remembered how beautiful it was and so this was going to be an adventure for me in trying to find it but even more a wonderful first face to face meeting with my new friend and woman I was very interested to get to know more about. Well, we decided to meet on a Saturday morning with plans to meet at a nearby convenience store near the area and drive together up to the mountain to find a place to sit in the large trees at the base of the mountain and have lunch. Then we would tour the loop of the mountain stopping a several places to see the sights, talk and get to know each other better. When we met at the convenience store, I saw her blue Kia come into the parking lot and park. I drove over to where she had parked and parked next to her. We got out and said Hey…got our gear in my car. She got in and we shook hands as to say Hey again…It was at that moment she said, Oh I forgot something. She got out of the car and walked away from my car to hers to get what she had forgot. I said under my breath…” Nice butt”. She had gotten what she had forgot. I do not even remember what it was…I just remember my first impression when she walked away. LOL….
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